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Its ending soon. SOON! Dooms day is marked at Friday 13th November. This semester is screwed up seriously. It would be not surprising if I am not able to continue to the next. Give me peace! There is 1 thing.. If I get it now, I would be fully recharged like how I am during holidays. It can even boost my intelligence level by 500% and smooth sailing during assessment.  Will cost between 700-800 sgd. Yes I am dreaming coz my brains are meshed. I WANT THIS WALLET DAMMIT!! jyan jyan! Oh btw, a parcel from annahouse had arrived! Kammie must be jumping up and down now. The poor lost package... The address was written as '371' instead of '372' (#-__-)  Selicia blogged at 2:55 PM 0Comments (⌒∇⌒)ﾉ I knew it, I knew it I knew it, this semester is screwed up. (T^T;) Enough of school... (-_-.) Oh ya, Friday was a rehersal for Liwan and friends fashion show. Suddenly I am to walk on the runway, rather nervous. Sat was the real thing and it went well. First experience being a model for a show, and wearing such heavy makeup! Rather fun to me at least (*^o^*)  About 2 weeks ago, it seems that a big groupa was caught again. Mom called the media and our restaurant name made it into 2 papers for free advertistment. This fish which was only estimated over 100kg made it into the papers.. 10 years ago, that 160kg fish which require 6 mens to carry didnt.   We are all complaining why papa did not take the photo instead!  Papa cooked fish stew from the bones.. And it was.... WOOSH SUPER FILLING! (^-^)b  This happened 3 times yesterday while me and KT was watching gaki no tsukai in youtube. No idea why.  I always start on something new and give up other drawings half way. I wonder why. NOTE BOOK DOODLES! (i swear i did Class is boring. Out of proportions coz they are.. doodles~  feeling of the moment 1  feeling of the moment 2  its shou on the right  and sou. I wish i had proper eyes dammit.  nini says byebye~ (>_<)/ Selicia blogged at 2:19 PM 0Comments (⌒∇⌒)ﾉ Its... WILD WILD WET AGAIN!?!!?!!! "WoAH! Why did you get so mcuh darker!" Says mama. Yes!! Its Nafa Fun day today at Wild Wild Wet, and its complusory to attend. Boo! Just when friday comes along for me to sleep. I dont intend to go since it seems sooooooooo boring. In the end it was worthwile after all. Playing with a big bunch is soooo much fun! (^-^)o After wildwild wet, went cycling with vivian, mok, cheryl, cynthia, vania, katijah, wendy before heading for dinner. And cabbed home with Wendy is late for work. I came home yesterday and lie dead on my bed till almost 9.30am today as I didnt sleep for 2 days previously. Father told me just now I was sleeping with my sissors, sewing kit, pens. How dangerous.. (>o<) I am SOOOOO tired now. But I have to rush PD (T^T) I want to print them out on Sunday so I have time to mount them up! AHAHAHAHA!! A little horrible picture...  
Selicia blogged at 1:46 AM 0Comments (⌒∇⌒)ﾉ After the hectic tutorial week. I realised that I am so behind time (-_-;) A new term started this Tuesday. I did not manage to finish those SWOT, analysis and marketing stuffs for 4 brand. I dont how to start even. LOL Survey analysis regarding consumer buying trend. The almighty research folder of 5 trends for Spring Summer 2010. Lily's computerized product prints catalogue booklet supposedly to be handed in by Tuesday. I have decided to do children wear of the 19th century! But the motifs I created are rather unsuitable. Illustrator expired, using photo shop for this case is rather a pain. Pattern making princess cut dress final pattern. I have forgotten how to draw the zipper allowance. So lazy to check past year's work. I have only just comfirmed my design and drew my master plan yesterday. Still a little confused about drawing the lining and facing. To buy cloth for princess line dress sewing Fabrics got rejected due to colours, needa get more! And i know just where to get it! Having to go arab street again is... (T^T) Submission of product development mood, fabric boards. Technical drawings and illustrations of collection. Pattern making folder. I lost my sheath or shift dress master plan. LOL! I dont want to re-do it! May's assortment plan due today. I dont know how to start. So confusing! Sewing, my knit wear not done yet! Sewing folder to be organized too. Sue wanna see it on next wednesday. I wonder will there be any machines available on tuesday afternoon I want to finish everything by Sunday! (i will probably finish 3 out of all only) So busy so busy! Thursday had ended. I can replenish my loss of sleep throughout the week! Pictures just to compensate for the overwhelming texts recently. Drew a little during the tutorial week. Lost touch already. I guess now, i cannot draw portraits anymore. Little peaks, majority not completed.  Gibbet. Nifhelm creatures are so interesting!  This is no chibi-fied kamen rider. KHR's filler cant get anymore comical without Skull.  Mukuro is a must when it comes to KHR.  Part of a Shelther. O___O!! I dont know the spelling  Started to draw this during kuroshitsuji's circus arc. The circus had ended, drawing still untouched, uncompleted. I still plan to draw a series of circus inspired random characters to practice on. Maybe i will complete at 2011... Yes I am rather addicted to inks now. o(^-^)o Blame on Alice's works! They are all so beautifully inked. I love them so much!  My previous job. Selicia blogged at 11:56 PM 0Comments (⌒∇⌒)ﾉ Back... To being lifeless here again you might think. Democratic society. Freedom of speech. Rights, whatever. . Oh, great. I want to be a carefree person, so I would not choose to make things complicated. Solving problems like this is a pain. I prefer to ignore, treat nothing has happened, cut ties if things get a tad too messy and treat it as the whole matter doesn’t exists at all. Well, maybe my bad for I am a human like this. For example, ******* case, (bloody hell, I hate to use this example.) That person has like 6-7 entries about me as long as the previous bottom post I had, without the spacings. I don’t give a damn. Getting worked up for such a trivial thing? It’s laughable. * Kammie was blamed badly. She is being pushed to the limits, frustrated. Human’s nature. Imagine being pestered constantly into being the middle man. Stressed, on ‘which side should I help’ stuff. In either way, a person will feel betrayed. There is no grey zone for this case. Scenario: You are 14. Stuck in a middle of a messy situation and the opposite party is a 19 year old. She kept asking you to deliver messages, ask lots of questions about homosexual stuffs to another girl. She asked you to ask if that girl accepts a relationship with a girl. The answer is a obviously NO, and yet she doesn’t want to buy your words. And wants you to phone the girl that she likes for her, help in sms-ing her, check for her if that girl is online. Call the girl’s house phone if there is no reply on the hand phone. Constantly. Vexed? There is more.. Complains, rants. Talking about sexual stuffs she fantasized. Imaginary scenario of a disgusting confession to that girl. And wanting to tattoo that girl’s name. And several plans on doing this and that. You told her off, she wont listen. And she keep tell you how she assumes that girl is a lesbian no matter how many times you tell her that that girl is straight. The list goes on. With all this, would you spill the beans and say out a plan in which the girl, a friend and your plans to confront her and makes thing clear, giving her advices? To get her to wake up or understand or you have reached your limit, probably you will right? And why you will? Being pushed to the edge. Period. Being the middle man suxs. * The mess seems cleared up, the storm was over. I am now rather reluctant to delete the damned post below. Shall do it soon. With this, I don’t want to start a new problem. Heyhey, personal blog, no names stated. Don’t like? shoo shoo.. I am being judged by a human whom I do not know and obviously she doesn’t know me either. I was told by, that person, that I have personality problems, people hate me because of my attitude, and some more factors which I forgotten. Hmm? I have only met that girl once before. Oh yeah before I even met her, she claimed that she hates me just from my pictures. Splendid indeed. So tell me, what’s wrong with my fucking personality. And well, a 3rd party should not be nosey eh? That old simple phrase, making a mountain out of a mole’s hill. * Oh, about the blog post, it is a rant from last year, plain and simple. I treat her as a friend, how she doesn’t want to change, and I let it pass. I did not HATE her that time. i'm juzt frustated. Trace up back to the starting point. Who is at fault first before you pin point. Who is the one who start up this mess? After last Sunday, I admit I start to dislike her. Well, you can’t clap with 1 hand. There will be a reaction in every action you make, accept it or else don’t move. You provoke I react. Instinct. * If I hate her, I would have taken my family’s advice – call the police. With what she had done, it is enough to call for the police, Shawn said. But calling the police is like making a big boo boo outta nothing, I still treated her as a friend. With this it is too much although I am super worried of myself. What will she do next etc. I am freaked out, and insecure. My parents freaked out too. What have she done? She know it herself. I am at fault indirectly? I have kept my silence and agreed accordingly when Desmond tells me while we are discussing about how to solve this mess. I should be more alert of stuffs happening around me. My faults? (as pointed out by someone not directly related) Knowing she likes me, but do nothing to stop it. I don’t want to assume therefore leading to a broken friendship. I have no soild proof of that she likes me. Besides she even had a relationship with a guy. How to judge? stay over at Kammie’s place and let her get close to me. hey I have no solid idea of her feeling at that particular time. It was only a few days after the stayover then I was told. Lie onto her shoulder in the taxi, thus like I am giving her a chance or something? Hello? I was dead tired and I was sleeping. She pushed my head down by her own. Would you care or notice so much if you are sleepy? Be reasonable. Stating an example in a situation of a boy liking a girl is totally unrelated. If the opposite party is a boy, it is a piece of cake. Now, the opposite party is a girl who have been through a BGR relationship. Well, maybe not related, coz these stuffs was like.. Last year? Lost track of time line, I am super forgetful. She insists alot. I told her I have no entertainment for her and have school the next day. She said that she will have herself entertained and will vanish in the morning. Then she came over. After a lot of ‘pleases’. I have a fucking attitude/personality =D? Oh-ho-ho? Booo! Don’t judge me already when you just seen me ONCE or TWICE before. If all of her friends hate me, so be it. What can I do? I don’t know them well, nor do I know who they are. Don’t judge a book by its cover. My attitude yesterday was bad maybe, coz I am really irritated by this whole case already. And I have to leave work early, to meet people who hates me to settle this whole thing. 3rd party pops in being almost 1 sided. The starter acts as if she dosent have a mouth. Have a grudge with my attitude or the way I look, that’s a personal problem within oneself. I see no reason to drag it that night. I stated that I don’t care if they dislike me. Yes I don’t care now. But at that time, when I wrote that particular entry 1 year ago, I was bothered by it as I felt the blame. Soon after that, I don’t care already. I post the entry out not to give them a loophole to point out that I am still bothered by it now but just to state my position during that time. I am NOT bothered by it now. I don’t look dust matters. Digging in such a insignificant matter for? Totally unrelated. Blogged that previous entry. Heh. Believe it or not, i wrote that quoted part of the entry a year ago. To cool off my head whatever you call it. It is only saying how much I detest people following my footstep so close behind. And I cannot stand it when it was my fault indirectly or directly there she changed and her friends hate her change. Leaving me in sort of a guilt-ridden situation which is ridiculous. Nothing else, personal thoughts and unhappiness about what happen. Even up till recently, i dont know now, she likes the brand i am fond of, wanna buy stuffs that i have, likes the bands I listens to, likes stuffs that i love which i had have introduced to her etc. I did not care. My main point is to ask her to change for the better; I am telling her her faults. If she wanna follow me like she did, I don’t care about it already. I want her to change and move forward. Maybe someone is just too hot tempered to understand simple stuff. I wrote that I wont say anything out yet I posted half of the story there. MAYBE, Its only ¼ of the story. Another ¼ is of cause what she inflicted on me with her selfish actions recently. An ugly talk indeed. I decide actions of my own. You go around telling every one, trashing my image, suits you. Many asked before, why is she trying to be like you? I just laugh it off and treat as a casual remark naturally. No spikes. The other half? Its from her, herself. That’s makes the whole story a whole. Knowing the feelings of a one sided party isn’t something u can judge on. Well, I don’t even see my previous entry as a story. Simply a complain about what I felt at the time, posting it out to let her understand and change back to what she formally is. And obviously I don’t really know how she dress previously before her imitation. I dont want shoulder blames and i have threw them away by ignoring. Bombard me now why to I post almost the whole story in this entry although I say I wont in my previous post. Reason being, in this twisted situation, I don’t want to keep quiet about it. They have their rights, I have mine too. Everything made as if the entire fault is directed almost to my side. Why did I bring a friend along to confront her thus humiliating? I’ve remembered. Des encouraged me to bring ‘My army’ in case I am lost for words. He said that as she is stubborn, and nothing might go into her in the end of the day, which is true. Sorry des, not trying to put you in hot soup. I am seriously freaked out that time after knowing the whole thing and those obsession-ized thoughts, and felt safer with a friend by my side, who also happen to meet me for dinner that day. My friend is someone who got hated by them since secondary school. They did not cross each another’s path in their life except being in the same secondary school. Throw personal grudge behind in such cases. Ok, fine say me hum ji, blogged about the previous entry saying I hate her and yet pretend to be her friend, whatever. I stated my point clear, I still treat her as a friend at the point of time, but just unhappy about her actions. Moral behind that post is just to ask her to change for the better, like how her friends like her for who she is before or something like that. I don’t know. I have already spoken to her before I blogged my previous entry anyway. I am not good at settling stuffs face to face those are just bit and pieces uncleared. * I felt that conversation the whole night basically revolves around my attitude, and personality. And stuffs that was assumed of what me and kammie have done wrongly. Ridiculous really. I recalled and see no point in leaving work early and make my way down. I have no spare time listening to someone who interrupts before I finish talking. And kept clinging to a one sided view of this situation and judging from it. Fine, they have lectured her after we left. Whereas, how come that person who caused this entire mess wad dumbfounded that night? Having a third party stand up for her. That 3rd party knows only 1 side of the story. Which is the pitiful emotional side of the problem starter I suppose. Having a 3rd party barge into this matter and wanting to lecture on my attitude, looks and personality when she doesn’t even know me. That 3rd claimed that she is involved in this as her friend seek comfort and advices from her. Coming up to her asking for directions. The 3rd party made BIG efforts cheering her up from what she is facing. 3rd party kept quiet from the all along until that night she barged in and talk gibberish as she cannot stand being at the side walk anymore. I kept my friends and family from being involved. Why cant she? Everything would have ended last week if someone isnt that stubborn. Lingering around this mess. I am dying to wash my hands off this matter ever since I knew it. That's the end of it. Yay. A mental burden less now. Selicia blogged at 4:00 AM 0Comments (⌒∇⌒)ﾉ One side of the story isn’t something you can judge a human on. Hello? You are not a victim here. We got burnt while trying to help you. Guess what? Re-trace my blog entry one year back, you will probably notice something. Who wanna know what I wrote in my blog during June 29 2008 at 6.13am? It was saved and un-posted. Just a rant. At that moment I was really pissed, thus written in a super offensive way. I repeat. Very offensive, I warn you. People who are her friends would hate me. But its ok. I am used to it anyway. Cheh! I wont say sorry. Not my fault. Seriously. WE ARE JUST TRYING TO HELP YOU. Skip it if you don’t want to get offended ok. Since it is also boring from here on. Here goes.
Obviously I know all these crap from last year. I kept it to myself. Reason? Is there a reason to hurt a friend? No. I shun you for a period of time last year. To let you fucking cool your head off idiot. I wont rant the whole story here. I want to complain to the whole world like you do. But I wont. You have been warned, you have been signaled, you have been told, you have been advised, you have been discouraged not to do so. Yet all this shit comes out. All because you are: STUBBORN We are saying for you own good, you don’t understand really. We will fuck off, don’t worry since you don’t listen. Go ahead, absorb those bad advices. In the end of the day, its YOU who suffers. When you have grown up more, mentally, after a few years, don’t look back and regret. Well, some humans are too shallow to understand I guess. What we did to you last week was all for your own fucking sake. I have already made it kind as not to hurt you too much with words. Initially, *censored* wants to tell you off till you break down and cry. To hopefully knock some sense into you. Not saying as if I am playing a good person role here, but we figured out not to say such harsh stuffs. I told you straight to the point and ask you to change. But you are, again, SO STUBBORN to the extent that you wont listen. Remember I shun you for a period of time, coz I knew it it and found out about it. And felt bad about it. I though a cool down period is enough to wake you up. Yet, stubborn attitude makes no difference. I put everything behind and forgot about it, following my foot steps, everything. Even up till now you are doing it so, and everyone around me is telling me that. I dont care. And well.. Advices are given to you, all for your own good. I dont care already. You reap what you sow, if you don’t take advices. Seriously. Learn to read between the lines. There is a reason for everything. Turn back, walk straight. If you still don't, well we can do nothing. HAH! DISPISE ME ALL YOU WANT Lastly. Dont assume. Selicia blogged at 1:09 AM 0Comments (⌒∇⌒)ﾉ Too lazy to write too much. A quick post before continuing watching anime. Went to the doctor twice and got a MC for 4 days. The fever dosent want to leave me. 38.5 all along except for yesterday, it dropped to 37. Rested for 3days, went to school today and it turned bad again (-_q) Was at Kammie for 2 nights last week (^-^)/ Thanks you! I love the food at manpuku! We went wild wild wet too!  ... Selicia blogged at 4:07 AM 0Comments (⌒∇⌒)ﾉ I feel totally disgusted. To that thing: fuck off. Selicia blogged at 10:07 PM 0Comments (⌒∇⌒)ﾉ
 From powdered Milo, to instant 3 in 1 package... Now ready to drink packs. We are getting lazier. (-__-") Mama was making a ruckus this morning, when I woke up. She was dumping stuffs again. (-A-!) Clearing the store room of our old clothes, stuffs, bags. And QY was sorting out the display cabinet cupboard. Of coz, I helped. Freaking worried that mama will dump my stuffs. (> <;) I was clearing my room a little the night before too.. Before leaving for school, I reminded her over and over again not to step into my room and keep her hand off my cupboard at the TV console. Indeed, there was alot of interesting finds which I thought that they have been dumped over a decade ago. My primary school journal Primary 1 Chinese writing exercise book 1-sentence-a-page story books Kindergarden Children' Day bag 3 494 Baby clothes 718474 Toddler clothes 2935945 Children clothes 93284723 Unwanted clothes Secondary books/notes/files from sec 1 - 4 Mrs Yap's tuition assessment books from Pri 2-Sec2 etc etc..  QY's note on a tissue paper. Found her super old Chicky club bag...  And 2 Mr.Bean style bear.  My birthday present 5239841 years ago.  Unknown tape. Maybe I can find a cassette too.  CHC emerge '04 lanyard   A yellowed watch from primary school period. I swear i used it less than 10 times. (￣□￣;)  My kindergarden weird habit, collecting bread tag. It all started when my kindergarden teacher wants us to bring a tag or 2 to school for our paper camera making. I am so happy coz there were loads of tags for me to collect at the restaurant.  Expired cough syrup, dehydration packs, inflammation tablets, etc etc etc  Cross stitch threads. Secondary school craze.  Yellowed name card holder with 298572 digimon cards inside. I thought these have been dumped away with those Pokemon cards before secondary school.  My Tamiya spare parts, rechargeable batteries, weights, balancer, ball bearings whatever u call it. I cant believe this is still in the store room. Mountains of childhood treasure. Omg.  One of my favourite family picture. I found it in my secret photo album. Lots of photos of my when i was about 3 onwards. That particular photo album was a free gift from buying children's milk powder. Hmmm! I love collecting stuffs eh? AAAAAA aaa aa a a a a a a a a a aaaaaaaaaa aaa a a aaaa a aaaa a a a a I WANT HOLIDAY! A LONG LONG LONG HOLIDAY! Show my face a bit   OK! Watch video a bit and off to bed! Till here Selicia blogged at 3:13 AM 0Comments (⌒∇⌒)ﾉ Hi! =) School started 2 weeks ago.. or 3?!?! (-_-#) Holidays were fun (o^^o) Apart of usual stuffs like movies, shopping, I went prawn fishing, Ubin etc! Missed BBQ by the beach all of a sudden. Shall do it on the next holiday! (^^)p Anyway! Un-posted stuffs shall get squeeeeeezed here. ☆ Mothers’ Day   Some itchy fingered idiot put that ‘Happy Birthday’ sign on the cake.. With the disgusting Kt at the background. (-_\)  My grandparents!  Those noisy child cousins and sisters. (-_-#)  The I-Love-To-Eat-Mango-Seed KT. ☆ Fathers’ Day  I love the taste of this cake~  Forcing those Daddys into a picture is so diffcult. I managed to get these few only. Heh.  I am the eldest grand child! Since Shawn isn’t there. He might be in camp at the point of time. ☆ Wedding Dinner  Some relatives’ wedding.  Finally, there is a picture to compare. When it comes to anything alcoholic…  Kaiting would turn very very red! Just look at our hands! The left one is obviously KT’s. I swear she is not drunk or what! She just turn very red even with just a hint of alcohol.  Heh!  Oh yeah! I HATE yam paste. But almost every dinner have yam paste as their dessert. So I tired. IT WAS DIFFERENT! Not only the colour, but the texture too! Rather yummy! Still, I hate yam paste so I just ate a little.. I might grow to like it one day! Just like green tea~  Kt too this in the elevator! Although I look fat, but I love the colour! Thanks CM for helping me bleach me hair! ☆ Cosfest 09 AS USUAL! No much pictures taken! A tiny bit rush, Haven’t got the time to do my hair at all. So I just straighten it, tie my headdress, And off we go. It was SUPER empty when we got there. Inside, just a Gundam posing.  He posed for a very long time! So we decided to eat first…  Macdonals! It was packed last year, but this year we could get a place easily.  Silent Hill nurses  Digimon! Lol.  Random girl.  Kon!  Krauser II and Negishi Lol! Freaking funny that day. He rawks man.  Band member on the left. Sex: M  Under my parasol~  ダメつな -END OF PICTURES- Pathetic amount right? Purikura~    学校で忙しそうになる。 山の難しい宿題や、グルププロジャックは嫌だな… 中学のころに戻りたい。 Selicia blogged at 3:39 PM 0Comments (⌒∇⌒)ﾉ HMM!? What to write? Hmm! I've alot to update! But I'm lazy and I've forgotten. BUT BUT BUT! I will write a long entry then since it took me quite sometime to recover my password and username! Holidays are here and I've been enjoying for many many weeks already! It feels like school gonna reopen soon! (T^T) After such a long time, I am hooked up to drawing again! I've got like so so many technical pens lying around, I tried using them. I always make mistakes when dealing with inks. For my school works too. Ahh Well, Here is my first attempt. Done quite Long ago. Piamette by ~hana-bira on deviantART Ahaha! My deviantArt account is empty as i dont bother to update. I guess, I shall from now on. (o^□^o) Ok~~~~~! June 9 2009 Which is last weeeeeek! WE WENT TO UBIN~~ o(^-^)o With QY, Kammie, YL Cycling is just so fun! I think I became a tiny bit darker? (T^T)      This fella was crossing the patch we were cycling.. (￣○￣")  If you cant see. Here it is..  This place... Looks like those martial arts, olden chinese drama sence.   A rocky shore. O___O!!!   This thing looks like Mickey Mouse yeah? The face, the face I mean..  At Yl's Ah gong house!! Our resting stop xD!      And we went back to Changi~~~~ Played pool, forced ah peng to treat us dinner. Then back to Tampines! AND!!! June 16~~ we went to Sentosa!! With QY, Kun, YL, Kammie, and kammie's friend xin yi. *dunno how to spell her name* Feels refreshing! So refreshing!! (*^^*) The 2 went home early. Did not take photos xD! Pictures are blur. (-_-#) YL's camera PMS. THE WEATHER IS NOT SUNNY!!! ITS GREAT!! Too bad for QY who wanna sun tan!         Washed up!  And we went to Vivo for dinner~~~~~! Ok, a nice video. < Its the KT and QY! Selicia blogged at 9:12 PM 0Comments (⌒∇⌒)ﾉ
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